I used this blog to jot down any thoughts that I carry inside that may be too real to speak about, or too close to reveal about, for all to see. The real me, the person that makes everyone laugh, can carry you to your car if your too drunk to walk, and sometimes the one that can help you back on your feet when your let down, or even hurt. I had paused a lot of my work on here and in my personal life to focus more on work and dive deep into what I needed to do to be the best there ever was, and to be in place and reach that brass ring, no matter how dirty it is. Well, I reached and I fell...
So this would be the part where I start to talk up a big game for myself and I promise everyone that I'll be able to make it through. And I'm sure I will, but that doesn't even touch what I would like to address. I'm not normally someone who tells tales of the inner dark areas of my closet, but tonight I've been inspired too. First and fore most, I have become completely disappointed in most of the female gender that I know. "Why?" You ask me? Well, it's quite simple really. I placed a good amount of trust into someone about 2 years ago and also gave my time and energy to not just make the relationship work but also build this person's self confidence. What do I get for it? Someone who lies and takes the value of love ones hold of them for granted, just to not only burn themselves but those around them. I am one of those that got burned...point sighted...And from that I have taken a complete back seat when it came to matters of love or a girl who wants to date me. I do this because there hasn't been anyone in my life that has any tangible value or good moral up bringing that I feel deserves me.
Now I know that you would think I'm talking coincided or that I have a big ego, but realize that I do have a big a EGO! I have an ego because I have no one close in my life that can truly share my accomplishments, and help me recover from my failures, so I gas myself up to feel better when I'm down, and treat myself out when I deserve it. And it is a god damn shame that I live in a time and place where women don't act like women they act like young children, I know guys can be stupid and immature but I'm not one of them, stop comparing me to the last 5 loser douches you dated. Now I'm sure that you would tell me, "Well you are meeting all the wrong women, find someone on your level." And If you did I would laugh in your face, because there is no one on my level, finding someone who is single like me, independent like me, has no kids like me, and around my age and maturity is like finding a resolution to world peace, we talk about it like it will happen sometime soon, but we all know deep down inside that it won't. I've given my share of opportunities, I've dated single mother's, women who have been married, and ones who have had been through either scenarios, and normal single women whom people thought were a good match for me. It just hasn't worked out...
THE RELATIONSHIP STORY -
This story is about a lot of the trials and situations that one young man doesn't expect to go through, but when he does he realizes more about himself then he ever has before. I will continue this story and complete it by the end of 2010. This story has some situations that I have gone through myself and some that I have heard of, but the point of this is that not everything dramatic happens to these "victims" other wise known as women. Men go through this shit too, we just hide it better. I plan on completing it near the year's end and plan to create something out of it. But the point is, women cry for this "Knight in shining Armor" to save them, when in reality, you've fucked up your own life and you just want someone to come and settle for you and your failures.
So in closing, I just wanted to be able to share to you all my thoughts, love me or hate me, just know that I will never fail to keep it fresh, funky and most of all real.
~ Saúl Acevedo ~
