A Blessing & A Prayer

Today, I was given news that my Godfather has passed away due to a car accident.

I have lots of memories of my Godfather growing up. He was a very reserved and well dressed man. He always looked his best whenever I saw him, whether it be my birthday or my confirmation. He was a good man, like my father.

Sometimes things change in life so much that you have to make sure you take a moment and watch what life has given you.

I have so much respect for my Godfather, and being a Godfather myself, made me think a little deeper about the legacy I would like to leave my God Children.

My Godson actually heard of the news and empathized with the reality that I no longer have a Godfather. Maybe he put himself in my shoes for a moment and his heart fell heavy. He ended up giving me a hug and telling me he was sorry for my lost. What a sweet gesture from a kind soul.

That made me really think about what legacy I would like to leave my Godson one day. And as a Godparent, I was chosen by my Godchild's parents to be a mentor, and additional father figure for them as they grow up and mature through their journey in God and Faith.

So I leave this message with a Blessing and a Prayer for my Godfather...




Angel de Dios, Mi querido Guardián; fuiste enviado para protegernos. En este día permanece junto a mí, para alumbrar y guiar, guardarme y dirigirme. Enseñame, mi querido Angel de la Guarda, a conocer a Dios, para amarlo y servirlo por siempre. Aléjame de todo peligro y enseñame el camino al Cielo. Amén.

May you rest in peace padrino.

~ God Bless ~

~ S ~

Winds of Change

The winds of the warmest autumn we've had in the Midwest is in full swing. The leaves falling off, colors fading, and the bronze, oranges, and browns of the fall take over as what used to be the colorful summer.



Fall brings change. And boy is there a lot of change on my end. I've met someone special to me, I've kick started my career again, and now it's time to take these changes and make new ones from them. We will never truly know what path would be the best one taken when making decisions. But what we can do from them is learn.

I intend on taking every solid good opportunity placed before me and will move forward till its end.

Here's to sending my good vides out to the universe.

~S~

Things Happen For What They Must...

Time passes by, and things change. We grow older, learn from our regrets, and try to catch up with the sands of time. We try to live a better life and make decisions that reflect what we've learned durning our hard times.

No matter how awesome a situation was, relationship you had, or choice that had to be made. Remember, you made them because you felt it was better for you. Now is not the time to regret the path you took that put you where you are today.

Now is the time to atone for the decisions you've made and make sure they happened to you for a reason. Whether you make it a good reason or not depends on your character.

Make the moves that count and try to put yourself back in the spotlight of your choosing.

Just remember, if you're content and happy, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Live your life your way and enjoy what sands of time you have left.

~ S ~

Lessons Learned

How does one really start a post about learning something that they've learned a while ago? Being out here away from my busy life back home has given me some time to force on focusing on myself. It has been really good so far.

A Message For Those Dependent For A Valentine

So here you are.  Your alone on Valentine's Day with nothing better to do then feel like a super lame EMO kid who is one bad rock song away from slitting their wrists.  Well, my advice to you?  Grow the Hell up.  Sorry I couldn't really keep that back but I have to be honest with you.  I've come across so many people who feel "Dependent" on hoping or wishing for a Valentine's sweetie to sweep them off their feet and make them feel like a little angel or expect them to buy this super expensive gift or whatnot.  Seriously, just look at this situation your putting yourself through.  Setting expectations for someone who probably doesn't even know you or know you exist.  Now I know what your thinking, "Damn, Saúl is being a jerk right now, he must really hate Valentine's Day."  What I would say to you is that your assumption couldn't be far from accurate about my view on Valentine's Day.  I literary enjoy that day completely.  Being the attractive and superb bachelor that I am, it's so sad when I come across females that I might be interested in at this time of year, and they "break down" when they are single during this time of the year. They feel like their world is gonna end or that it's more like "Single Awareness Day" then anything else.  Truth be told, your life is what you make of it.  If you are currently mad at me while reading this post then you maybe one of the many who feel that they "Need" to be with someone so that they can be happy.  Spend the day with your family if it bothers you that much.  Hang out with friends if you feel the need to be around people other then your family.  Again, my apologies if I've offended you but the reality is you need to take a step back and appreciate yourself for who YOU ARE before you can make the next step of receiving that appreciation from someone else.  The equivalent is that one girl in your group of friends that need to have the most attention or material possessions just to feel better about themselves, aka Gold Diggers.  And in case you are wondering, I do have an awesome day planned for Valentine's thanks for asking.  In the meantime in between time, keep your eyes here for new posts.  

Keep it Funky, Keep it Fresh, and I'll catch you on the Flipside.

~S~

Midnight Thoughts: Emotional Wanderings

Normally I would post up my next chapter in Heart Carvings, which I will really soon. However I thought I would take the time to put out some good thoughts to keep the mind wandering.

“Sex is more than an act of pleasure, its' the ability to be able to feel so close to a person, so connected, so comfortable that it's almost breathtaking to the point you feel you can’t take it. And at this moment you're a part of them.”

“Nobody dies from lack of sex. It's lack of love we die from.”

“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.”

My Send Off for 2010 - The End of a Challenging Year...

Video Link: HERE

I wanted to take a moment to address my thoughts on the year 2010.  I was a very hard year for me.  As most probably don't know, I have gone through a lot of life changes that challenged me in a way that I wouldn't have imagined.  Some great, well love people have left us and friends have been hurt.  I finally can say that I will officially be able to move on from all the negative people in my life.  Some former friends, some more then friends.  I have endured something I never thought I could move past from and the proof has arrived right before my eyes.  I am willing to take more changes and learn more.  Open myself up and work to become a better friend, brother, son, uncle, and god-father in the year to come.  This moment of reflection comes to me as a sign that no matter how hurt you can become, no matter how left out to dry your life has been, or even how bad your situation has become, as a person we can only learn from our mistakes and efforts and move forward with it.  There are a lot of people in my life I had to give up on, that I wish I never did. But I realized something about that, it was never me who gave up on them, it was them, they gave up on me, or us. However the situation looks, I strive to work at making it better, but you can never help someone who wishes not to be helped.  So I leave you all with this message...

"Don't worry about what resolutions you need to make for next year. Celebrate the accomplishments you made in this one. Celebrate the memories you've made and the people in your life. And also celebrate that you have a chance to do it again..."

I've got an amazing and very challenging year ahead of me as I assume you all do.  Let praise and be thankful for another shot at meeting new people and share great memories!  I dedicate this song to 2010!

40 Days of No Social Networking: Aftermath

How did I begin? Well, I guess I'll start with the basics. I was to honor my faith and give up one of my vices during Lent, I chose all social networking, minus my Blog. I uninstalled all possible options to either help me view and/or check out social networking outlets like, facebook, MySpace, twitter, etc. I kept my blog active as I use it sometimes to vent or get my thoughts across on stuff that plague my mind. Here are some of the thing I discovered;

The first week was a bit annoying if anything, it wasn't hard or difficult, just a little annoying. It was because I changed my habit, cold turkey, like if I was a smoker and just stopped smoking. I realize that it was a truly mind over matter thing. I decided to move other something else to pick that habit up, in this case was checking news feeds and interacting more with my "real-life-in-person" friends and family. I got teased along the way from other friends that knew I gave it up for lent. I focused more into my work and close one around me. As the weeks went by, I got used to not needed to check my twitter or facebook and accepted that reality. For yours truly, it was not a large challenge.

Kanye West-Street Lights(SPEC) Dir:Mills Miller from MillsMillerMedia on Vimeo.

During this time, to my disappointment, I ended a great close friendship that I share with someone whom I really cared for (relating post). Along with that comes the realization that things or situations come to those that may not have the ability to control, but in that instant you discover more of what kind of person you are and how you will grow to be. I don't look at this as a bitter situation at all, in fact, it was a freeing moment for both of us. I could only wish the best, and hope that I get the best. The best is what I'm going to strive for, both personally and professionally.

I know I'm strong enough to succeed. I've taken a financial hit in a world where we worry more about how pirates raid ships and less about how we can strive as a race or whole being. On top of that, I have an opportunity to make a better life for myself and all who surround their lives around me. I'm taking my changes with full faith, faith in myself. During this time in lent, I spent a small time on vacation out in Vegas which was hella fun. We pretty much got to walk around to and go everywhere and anywhere we wanted to without regard or regret. I had a lot of time to think about me, and focus more on what things I want. I'm starting to put together a big Birthday Party for myself to celebrate my 30th Birthday this year! It will be great and symbolize my new journey, as a stronger and much better person. Sorry if it seems I'm too philosophical on this post, I assure you that I'm still my crazy out going self, and will not only stay that way, but will also upgrade my career, social, and family game up to Version 2.0. See you on the sidelines...from the main center spotlight...

~The Return of The King~

Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

Topic Video: HERE

They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

Dedication Video: HERE

Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

Topic Video: HERE

They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

Dedication Video: HERE

Happy Valentines' Day To Those Who Dream with a Broken Heart

YouTube Video Link HERE

This Blog post goes out to those of us in this world that are coming out of a bad break-up or a divorce they didn't want to happen. There are so many human emotions that can come across when something like this happens. It get the same feelings like when someone important to you has passed away. Your in disbelief, then regret, then denial, then fear, alone with mourning. Just know that there is always light at then end of this Heart Broken Tunnel. And for those of you out there that are happy with their spouse or Boyfriend/Girlfriend please make sure you tell them your their world, and never take them for granted. Give them an extra hug or sweet smile, appreciate them for who they are, and for being/putting up with you. Life is too short to be stubborn for your whole life. Just make them feel wanted and appreciated. And for my Broken Hearted ones out there, keep the faith and treat yourself this Valentines day, you deserve it. You can't start over and pick the pieces back up if you don't love yourself for who you are in the first place. God Bless everyone and enjoy the video. The hardest thing to do is to let go and begin again, weather it's with the same loved one, or a new interest, just know that it will pass, time will heal you, and you will become a more stronger person for it, I know. Happy Valentines' Day to the Broken Hearted, the Truly in Love, The Old Couple, The Newly Weds, and to all who spent their time reading my post.