Midnight Thoughts: Emotional Wanderings

Normally I would post up my next chapter in Heart Carvings, which I will really soon. However I thought I would take the time to put out some good thoughts to keep the mind wandering.

“Sex is more than an act of pleasure, its' the ability to be able to feel so close to a person, so connected, so comfortable that it's almost breathtaking to the point you feel you can’t take it. And at this moment you're a part of them.”

“Nobody dies from lack of sex. It's lack of love we die from.”

“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.”

For all the lame females in the World, you are on Notice!

I used this blog to jot down any thoughts that I carry inside that may be too real to speak about, or too close to reveal about, for all to see.  The real me, the person that makes everyone laugh, can carry you to your car if your too drunk to walk, and sometimes the one that can help you back on your feet when your let down, or even hurt.   I had paused a lot of my work on here and in my personal life to focus more on work and dive deep into what I needed to do to be the best there ever was, and to be in place and reach that brass ring, no matter how dirty it is.  Well, I reached and I fell...
So this would be the part where I start to talk up a big game for myself and I promise everyone that I'll be able to make it through.  And I'm sure I will, but that doesn't even touch what I would like to address.  I'm not normally someone who tells tales of the inner dark areas of my closet, but tonight I've been inspired too.  First and fore most, I have become completely disappointed in most of the female gender that I know.  "Why?"  You ask me?  Well, it's quite simple really.  I placed a good amount of trust into someone about 2 years ago and also gave my time and energy to not just make the relationship work but also build this person's self confidence.  What do I get for it?  Someone who lies and takes the value of love ones hold of them for granted, just to not only burn themselves but those around them.  I am one of those that got burned...point sighted...And from that I have taken a complete back seat when it came to matters of love or a girl who wants to date me.  I do this because there hasn't been anyone in my life that has any tangible value or good moral up bringing that I feel deserves me.

Now I know that you would think I'm talking coincided or that I have a big ego, but realize that I do have a big a EGO!  I have an ego because I have no one close in my life that can truly share my accomplishments, and help me recover from my failures, so I gas myself up to feel better when I'm down, and treat myself out when I deserve it.  And it is a god damn shame that I live in a time and place where women don't act like women they act like young children, I know guys can be stupid and immature but I'm not one of them, stop comparing me to the last 5 loser douches you dated.  Now I'm sure that you would tell me, "Well you are meeting all the wrong women, find someone on your level."  And If you did I would laugh in your face, because there is no one on my level, finding someone who is single like me, independent like me, has no kids like me, and around my age and maturity is like finding a resolution to world peace, we talk about it like it will happen sometime soon, but we all know deep down inside that it won't.  I've given my share of opportunities, I've dated single mother's, women who have been married, and ones who have had been through either scenarios, and normal single women whom people thought were a good match for me.  It just hasn't worked out... 

THE RELATIONSHIP STORY -
This story is about a lot of the trials and situations that one young man doesn't expect to go through, but when he does he realizes more about himself then he ever has before.  I will continue this story and complete it by the end of 2010.  This story has some situations that I have gone through myself and some that I have heard of, but the point of this is that not everything dramatic happens to these "victims" other wise known as women.  Men go through this shit too, we just hide it better.  I plan on completing it near the year's end and plan to create something out of it.  But the point is, women cry for this "Knight in shining Armor" to save them, when in reality, you've fucked up your own life and you just want someone to come and settle for you and your failures. 

So in closing, I just wanted to be able to share to you all my thoughts, love me or hate me, just know that I will never fail to keep it fresh, funky and most of all real.

~ Saúl Acevedo ~

Trey Songz - New Music - More Music Videos

For all the lame females in the World, you are on Notice!

I used this blog to jot down any thoughts that I carry inside that may be too real to speak about, or too close to reveal about, for all to see.  The real me, the person that makes everyone laugh, can carry you to your car if your too drunk to walk, and sometimes the one that can help you back on your feet when your let down, or even hurt.   I had paused a lot of my work on here and in my personal life to focus more on work and dive deep into what I needed to do to be the best there ever was, and to be in place and reach that brass ring, no matter how dirty it is.  Well, I reached and I fell...
So this would be the part where I start to talk up a big game for myself and I promise everyone that I'll be able to make it through.  And I'm sure I will, but that doesn't even touch what I would like to address.  I'm not normally someone who tells tales of the inner dark areas of my closet, but tonight I've been inspired too.  First and fore most, I have become completely disappointed in most of the female gender that I know.  "Why?"  You ask me?  Well, it's quite simple really.  I placed a good amount of trust into someone about 2 years ago and also gave my time and energy to not just make the relationship work but also build this person's self confidence.  What do I get for it?  Someone who lies and takes the value of love ones hold of them for granted, just to not only burn themselves but those around them.  I am one of those that got burned...point sighted...And from that I have taken a complete back seat when it came to matters of love or a girl who wants to date me.  I do this because there hasn't been anyone in my life that has any tangible value or good moral up bringing that I feel deserves me.

Now I know that you would think I'm talking coincided or that I have a big ego, but realize that I do have a big a EGO!  I have an ego because I have no one close in my life that can truly share my accomplishments, and help me recover from my failures, so I gas myself up to feel better when I'm down, and treat myself out when I deserve it.  And it is a god damn shame that I live in a time and place where women don't act like women they act like young children, I know guys can be stupid and immature but I'm not one of them, stop comparing me to the last 5 loser douches you dated.  Now I'm sure that you would tell me, "Well you are meeting all the wrong women, find someone on your level."  And If you did I would laugh in your face, because there is no one on my level, finding someone who is single like me, independent like me, has no kids like me, and around my age and maturity is like finding a resolution to world peace, we talk about it like it will happen sometime soon, but we all know deep down inside that it won't.  I've given my share of opportunities, I've dated single mother's, women who have been married, and ones who have had been through either scenarios, and normal single women whom people thought were a good match for me.  It just hasn't worked out... 

THE RELATIONSHIP STORY -
This story is about a lot of the trials and situations that one young man doesn't expect to go through, but when he does he realizes more about himself then he ever has before.  I will continue this story and complete it by the end of 2010.  This story has some situations that I have gone through myself and some that I have heard of, but the point of this is that not everything dramatic happens to these "victims" other wise known as women.  Men go through this shit too, we just hide it better.  I plan on completing it near the year's end and plan to create something out of it.  But the point is, women cry for this "Knight in shining Armor" to save them, when in reality, you've fucked up your own life and you just want someone to come and settle for you and your failures. 

So in closing, I just wanted to be able to share to you all my thoughts, love me or hate me, just know that I will never fail to keep it fresh, funky and most of all real.

~ Saúl Acevedo ~

Trey Songz - New Music - More Music Videos

Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

Topic Video: HERE

They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

Dedication Video: HERE

Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

Topic Video: HERE

They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

Dedication Video: HERE

Matters Of The Heart: Special Blog Post

I'm currently at at my hotel room and am about to enjoy tonight as my
last night now in St. Louis and I can't help but to mention to all my
peeps out there that are reading this, that in the end of all things,
especially in a relationship there is always something to take back
from it. If you didn't call enough, or if you called too much, either
way, there is some take back. So just realize that if your not with
someone right now, you can at the least take this for a piece of mind.
If you were really with that person right now, your mind has already
created a path of what you think your life will end up or have in it
before it ever happens. Now that it is not a reality anymore, weather
good or bad reasons, know that now going forward your future is what
you make of it. You don't need anybody to make you happy. First be
happy for who you are and what your about, when you hit that level of
happiness, finding the right person will come before you know it. Not
to ramble on here, but this is my blog and I can do/say what I want. I
used to be involved in a relationship where I was the perfect person
for her, but she was not for me. Now, although I have had fond
memories with this person, it was the best thing for both of us to
part from each other. Should I have hate inside me for this? Should I
treat people differently? My answer is yes! Yes, but for only for the
second question, I will definitely treat people differently going
forward after this. I owe it to myself. And one day the right breezy
will come along and my days as a single man will be numbered. But at
least now I can freely spend time with my friends and meet new people,
or catch up with old friends and rekindle the friendship. Yes in the end
of it all you can take back from it and move forward, into a future
that you solely will create. Make the most of it and enjoy every moment
you have.
Sidenote: During the same hardships of my last relationship, Kanye
West ended his with his Fiance. Not saying my situation was the same
as his (maybe, maybe not), but his songs - Love Lockdown & Heartless
call out. I can only believe that he is going to release his side of
the story and frustration in his new album. I recommend everyone out
there to pick it up: 808's & Heartbreak this month. I will.

Matters Of The Heart: Special Blog Post

I'm currently at at my hotel room and am about to enjoy tonight as my
last night now in St. Louis and I can't help but to mention to all my
peeps out there that are reading this, that in the end of all things,
especially in a relationship there is always something to take back
from it. If you didn't call enough, or if you called too much, either
way, there is some take back. So just realize that if your not with
someone right now, you can at the least take this for a piece of mind.

If you were really with that person right now, your mind has already
created a path of what you think your life will end up or have in it
before it ever happens. Now that it is not a reality anymore, weather
good or bad reasons, know that now going forward your future is what
you make of it. You don't need anybody to make you happy. First be
happy for who you are and what your about, when you hit that level of
happiness, finding the right person will come before you know it. Not
to ramble on here, but this is my blog and I can do/say what I want. I
used to be involved in a relationship where I was the perfect person
for her, but she was not for me. Now, although I have had fond
memories with this person, it was the best thing for both of us to
part from each other. Should I have hate inside me for this? Should I
treat people differently? My answer is yes! Yes, but for only for the
second question, I will definitely treat people differently going
forward after this. I owe it to myself. And one day the right breezy
will come along and my days as a single man will be numbered. But at
least now I can freely spend time with my friends and meet new people,
or catch up with old friends and rekindle the friendship. Yes in the end
of it all you can take back from it and move forward, into a future
that you solely will create. Make the most of it and enjoy every moment
you have.

Sidenote: During the same hardships of my last relationship, Kanye
West ended his with his Fiance. Not saying my situation was the same
as his (maybe, maybe not), but his songs - Love Lockdown & Heartless
call out. I can only believe that he is going to release his side of
the story and frustration in his new album. I recommend everyone out
there to pick it up: 808's & Heartbreak this month. I will.