The Relationship Story
Written By: Saúl Acevedo
Episode 11
Velvet Reflection
The fog from the day's humid weather plagues the lonely loner's view while driving off into the night. As he parts ways for a second time, twice feeling the same shame and foolishness of putting his trust out there, he can only be filled with anger again. He continues his drive away from the events that have just transpired before his eyes, and with the actions he took in defending himself, he finds that he is a long far way from home, and not from a physical aspect but in a emotional aspect. He passes town after town to put his mind at ease and then discovers a small rest stop. He pulls in to refuel his ride and to take a break from his mind, his thoughts, and his emotions, all of which seem to be taking their toll on the wanderer's frame of mind. He thinks back into all that has happened to him the past months and how he has dealt with it all. "What's wrong with me?" he mutters to himself. "I put myself out there, trust her like I never did anyone in my life and tried my best to make it work." He proceeds to finish prepping for his journey back home and takes a moment to just stare up into the night's sky and catch the moon shining down. "Wow. The moon is really bright tonight." And instantly he recalls a heart felt moment in his life. "Life's just unfair. That's got it be it. I can't believe all this is so...real." He convinces himself. Our lonely loner happens to hear some light giggling and laughter behind him. As he turns to take a look, he is presented with a display of affection from a couple. She's continues to laugh and giggle her way past our lonely loner and make her way into her boyfriends arms. Alex looks lost, and gazes for a moment, to see if there is a reason for this interaction to take place in his presence. "I told you babe, it was gonna be a full moon! Someone owes me a kiss!" she belts out. "Alright-Alright you got lucky this time, I give up! Your too much!" he replies back to her, the two embrace each other and slowly kiss. Alex stares on for a little moment longer and turns away, walking back to his vehicle and begins to make his way back home. As he drives home all he can do is muster a quivering sense of loss, grief, denial, and regret. Our lonely loner has been wronged and by the one source of life he felt he had. Dealing with the loss of a loved one is hard, adding the reasoning of not feeling love along with it, takes the cut deeper. Having all the pain, stress and loss of hope that he has felt in the last portion of the year has made him feel very insecure and worthless. He begins to speed higher then the normal limit to reach his home destination in a timely manner. As he presses his foot on the gas pedal, he thinks back to all that he has done, and rethinks actions and decisions he made during his time with his former love. The talks of marriage that they had, the goals of raising a family together, all GONE. The street lights begin flowing past him like the memories in his mind. Some great, some sad, some even proving the worth of his affection and love. An now he plays games with himself and begins tricking himself for the moment that this wasn't real. He begins to approach his home town and make his way down the normal pathway to this place. "I can't wait to get home. I just want this night to be over." He thinks to himself. As he pulls into his driveway and makes his way into his home. He then prepares for bed in an almost panic type manner. He walks upstairs to his upper level balcony and stands by the edge, looking out into the quite night sky and begins to close his thoughts down for the night. Holding in his left hand a small black velvet box, holding it so carefully and then taking the time to open it up, revealing a princess cut 3 karat diamond engagement ring. With a froggy throat, red-teared eyes and the ring in his hand he looks up and says, "I loved someone so much that I wanted to share my life with them till my dying day. And now I sit here locked away in my room and prisoned with all my emotions, trying to free myself." Putting the ring away and placing the velvet box in the secret place he always kept it, our wanderer has finally begun the first true drop in this roller coaster of a heartbreak...acceptance. He now has to completely accept his situation and begin to make the changes that will further advance the healing process and hopefully help him find the right path in his journey.
I selected Kanye West's "Street Lights" because the song places in reflection of ones' self. We all need to give each other a self analysis every now and then, to honor what we owe to ourselves, and to make sure we are living up to the deserving expectations that significant other deserves. If we don't assess what we need to improve on, then you have already set yourself up for failure. In this case, Alex is now seeing that to embrace his new strength, he must first endure all the hardships and emotions dealt to him from this heartbreak. Only then, can one finally see what they have been searching for. The video portion of this song is an independent film makers concept of this song and I love it. It has a lot of realism to it and embraces the journey one must take to being the first steps of putting the pieces back together. Till, next time. God Bless and Good Night!
