The Relationship Story Episode 15: Bitter Moments (Colorblind)

The Relationship Story

Written By: Saúl Acevedo

Episode 15

Bitter Moments (Colorblind)

Alex lays in his bed staring at the ceiling of his place.  Eyes red, dry, and also tired.  He tilts his head to his left side and there is a torn picture in his hand, showing his face and what seems to be another person.  The other person's face is ripped off and color on the photo worn out as if it was left out in the rain.  To the right, there is a half eaten bowl of soup and his wallet, sprawled open.  His place full of color and new furnishings.  His phone beeps and he sluggishly reaches for his phone, which displays a text message saying, "I guess it just wasn't the right time, I'm sure things will get better for you.  I'm sorry for what I did...Good Luck...I'm gonna miss you. XOXO" 

Alex gets up and takes his time getting ready.  He takes a long shower, staying in deep thought, makes his way out from the shower into the sink and mirror.  He takes a moment to dry himself off and then glance at the mirror in front of him.  In the mirror Alex see's his defined jaw line and neatly trimmed facial hair.  Around his right eye is almost completely shut and areas of black and blue surround his face.  He stares in the mirror for a moment and then continues to get ready for the day.  

As Alex begins to put on his sneakers and head out the door, he stops himself and goes back into his bedroom, grabs the torn photo and goes out the door.  He gets in his car and takes a moment to look at the photo.

"Lexi...I'm so sorry..." as one tear streams down his face his whispers again..."I'm sorry, I just don't wanna bring you in this."  He starts his car and heads out from his city, very drawn away from the sunny fall day that is presented to him.  He starts down the expressway and then gets a phone call.  Alex glances over to it and then takes a good look at this hurt eye in the rearview mirror.  He then picks it up and answers.  "Hey...how are you doing?" and an exhausted yet cheery voice toned in, "I-I'm, good.  More importantly how are you baby?" she asks.  "I'll be fine. Just a little banged up.  I'm on my way. I should be there in about 30 mins."  Alex replies.  "Baby it's okay, I'm worried about you. I've been thinking about you non-stop. I think that must really mean something, you know, about us?"  She says.  Alex takes a deep breath in an almost annoyed and tired fashion and says, "Look Angelica, I'll be there soon we got a lot of things to talk about." Angelica replies back, "Hey babe, I'm just happy I get to see you again, I swear it must mean something.  I always knew that you were here to save me."  Alex gets off the phone and focuses on his highway driving.  He gets lost in most of the drive and begins to think to himself...

"What was I supposed to do?"

"What am I gonna do now?" 

"Am I supposed to be here?"

He reaches for his torn picture, quickly glances at it, cracks a small smile and then holds it to his chest.  "I'm really gonna miss you Lexi, I hope doing what I did was the right thing to do. I pray for you to find your happiness and that one day I'll find mine." He places the torn picture on his car sun visor and on the edge of it, the paper is curled, showing some writing behind it.  "2 Lonely Strangers - 1 Strong Love - Your Babygirl, Lexi" 

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I choose The Counting Crows for the next installment into this story.  The song is "Colorblind" and possibly one of this most emotional musical songs I have heard.  The piano riff and slowing tempo really bring out the emotion in this song.  In this song it talks about being imperfect, and not ready but at the same time needed to be saved and not being able to be save at the same time.  This is the beginning story arc for the rest of the story to be told here with Alex, a young man coming of age and also becoming more in tune with himself then he ever thought he would be.  There is a missing piece to this story, what is it?  What happened to Alex and Lexi?  Maybe next episode will shed some light on the situation. 

40 Days of No Social Networking: Aftermath

How did I begin? Well, I guess I'll start with the basics. I was to honor my faith and give up one of my vices during Lent, I chose all social networking, minus my Blog. I uninstalled all possible options to either help me view and/or check out social networking outlets like, facebook, MySpace, twitter, etc. I kept my blog active as I use it sometimes to vent or get my thoughts across on stuff that plague my mind. Here are some of the thing I discovered;

The first week was a bit annoying if anything, it wasn't hard or difficult, just a little annoying. It was because I changed my habit, cold turkey, like if I was a smoker and just stopped smoking. I realize that it was a truly mind over matter thing. I decided to move other something else to pick that habit up, in this case was checking news feeds and interacting more with my "real-life-in-person" friends and family. I got teased along the way from other friends that knew I gave it up for lent. I focused more into my work and close one around me. As the weeks went by, I got used to not needed to check my twitter or facebook and accepted that reality. For yours truly, it was not a large challenge.

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During this time, to my disappointment, I ended a great close friendship that I share with someone whom I really cared for (relating post). Along with that comes the realization that things or situations come to those that may not have the ability to control, but in that instant you discover more of what kind of person you are and how you will grow to be. I don't look at this as a bitter situation at all, in fact, it was a freeing moment for both of us. I could only wish the best, and hope that I get the best. The best is what I'm going to strive for, both personally and professionally.

I know I'm strong enough to succeed. I've taken a financial hit in a world where we worry more about how pirates raid ships and less about how we can strive as a race or whole being. On top of that, I have an opportunity to make a better life for myself and all who surround their lives around me. I'm taking my changes with full faith, faith in myself. During this time in lent, I spent a small time on vacation out in Vegas which was hella fun. We pretty much got to walk around to and go everywhere and anywhere we wanted to without regard or regret. I had a lot of time to think about me, and focus more on what things I want. I'm starting to put together a big Birthday Party for myself to celebrate my 30th Birthday this year! It will be great and symbolize my new journey, as a stronger and much better person. Sorry if it seems I'm too philosophical on this post, I assure you that I'm still my crazy out going self, and will not only stay that way, but will also upgrade my career, social, and family game up to Version 2.0. See you on the sidelines...from the main center spotlight...

~The Return of The King~

Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

Topic Video: HERE

They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

Dedication Video: HERE

Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

Topic Video: HERE

They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

Dedication Video: HERE

Happy Valentines' Day To Those Who Dream with a Broken Heart

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This Blog post goes out to those of us in this world that are coming out of a bad break-up or a divorce they didn't want to happen. There are so many human emotions that can come across when something like this happens. It get the same feelings like when someone important to you has passed away. Your in disbelief, then regret, then denial, then fear, alone with mourning. Just know that there is always light at then end of this Heart Broken Tunnel. And for those of you out there that are happy with their spouse or Boyfriend/Girlfriend please make sure you tell them your their world, and never take them for granted. Give them an extra hug or sweet smile, appreciate them for who they are, and for being/putting up with you. Life is too short to be stubborn for your whole life. Just make them feel wanted and appreciated. And for my Broken Hearted ones out there, keep the faith and treat yourself this Valentines day, you deserve it. You can't start over and pick the pieces back up if you don't love yourself for who you are in the first place. God Bless everyone and enjoy the video. The hardest thing to do is to let go and begin again, weather it's with the same loved one, or a new interest, just know that it will pass, time will heal you, and you will become a more stronger person for it, I know. Happy Valentines' Day to the Broken Hearted, the Truly in Love, The Old Couple, The Newly Weds, and to all who spent their time reading my post.