My Send Off for 2010 - The End of a Challenging Year...

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I wanted to take a moment to address my thoughts on the year 2010.  I was a very hard year for me.  As most probably don't know, I have gone through a lot of life changes that challenged me in a way that I wouldn't have imagined.  Some great, well love people have left us and friends have been hurt.  I finally can say that I will officially be able to move on from all the negative people in my life.  Some former friends, some more then friends.  I have endured something I never thought I could move past from and the proof has arrived right before my eyes.  I am willing to take more changes and learn more.  Open myself up and work to become a better friend, brother, son, uncle, and god-father in the year to come.  This moment of reflection comes to me as a sign that no matter how hurt you can become, no matter how left out to dry your life has been, or even how bad your situation has become, as a person we can only learn from our mistakes and efforts and move forward with it.  There are a lot of people in my life I had to give up on, that I wish I never did. But I realized something about that, it was never me who gave up on them, it was them, they gave up on me, or us. However the situation looks, I strive to work at making it better, but you can never help someone who wishes not to be helped.  So I leave you all with this message...

"Don't worry about what resolutions you need to make for next year. Celebrate the accomplishments you made in this one. Celebrate the memories you've made and the people in your life. And also celebrate that you have a chance to do it again..."

I've got an amazing and very challenging year ahead of me as I assume you all do.  Let praise and be thankful for another shot at meeting new people and share great memories!  I dedicate this song to 2010!

40 Days of No Social Networking: Aftermath

How did I begin? Well, I guess I'll start with the basics. I was to honor my faith and give up one of my vices during Lent, I chose all social networking, minus my Blog. I uninstalled all possible options to either help me view and/or check out social networking outlets like, facebook, MySpace, twitter, etc. I kept my blog active as I use it sometimes to vent or get my thoughts across on stuff that plague my mind. Here are some of the thing I discovered;

The first week was a bit annoying if anything, it wasn't hard or difficult, just a little annoying. It was because I changed my habit, cold turkey, like if I was a smoker and just stopped smoking. I realize that it was a truly mind over matter thing. I decided to move other something else to pick that habit up, in this case was checking news feeds and interacting more with my "real-life-in-person" friends and family. I got teased along the way from other friends that knew I gave it up for lent. I focused more into my work and close one around me. As the weeks went by, I got used to not needed to check my twitter or facebook and accepted that reality. For yours truly, it was not a large challenge.

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During this time, to my disappointment, I ended a great close friendship that I share with someone whom I really cared for (relating post). Along with that comes the realization that things or situations come to those that may not have the ability to control, but in that instant you discover more of what kind of person you are and how you will grow to be. I don't look at this as a bitter situation at all, in fact, it was a freeing moment for both of us. I could only wish the best, and hope that I get the best. The best is what I'm going to strive for, both personally and professionally.

I know I'm strong enough to succeed. I've taken a financial hit in a world where we worry more about how pirates raid ships and less about how we can strive as a race or whole being. On top of that, I have an opportunity to make a better life for myself and all who surround their lives around me. I'm taking my changes with full faith, faith in myself. During this time in lent, I spent a small time on vacation out in Vegas which was hella fun. We pretty much got to walk around to and go everywhere and anywhere we wanted to without regard or regret. I had a lot of time to think about me, and focus more on what things I want. I'm starting to put together a big Birthday Party for myself to celebrate my 30th Birthday this year! It will be great and symbolize my new journey, as a stronger and much better person. Sorry if it seems I'm too philosophical on this post, I assure you that I'm still my crazy out going self, and will not only stay that way, but will also upgrade my career, social, and family game up to Version 2.0. See you on the sidelines...from the main center spotlight...

~The Return of The King~

Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

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They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

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Matters Of The Heart: "To My Amazing Thing...Good Luck!"

Sometimes there are times in your life that you have a really good Amazing Thing going for you. And at this time you can sometimes catch yourself sitting back in awe of how such an amazing thing just stumbled upon your path. Well, this was one of those things. I have been seeing someone who was a very special person to me, she was everything opposite of me but at the same time the same. Well, for the sake of privacy, this person will not be named or shown in any photos, that's how special this person is to me, that I will take a step back and move the microscope I put on myself and keep it away from them. The whole point of this message is to remind all the married couples out there, the ones who are about to get married, and the ones who just happened to find their own "Amazing Thing" and find catching themselves sitting back in awe as well. Make sure you hold them a little more tighter, and tell them how you feel about them. I just told my Amazing Thing, and I have to let it go, I will never know how it will end, or how it could be, or what may happen to me or them after this, what I do know is that if you really care about someone, be it a family member, friend, or loved one, and you are able to give yourself the power to let go and give them a fighting chance and an opportunity for a better life, even if it's not with you in it, that is what really caring about someone is. And that's where I find myself, I just finished a hard conversation that ended something so great, that will always affect the way I treat everyone in my life, my co-workers, family, friends, and my next "Amazing Thing" whenever that happens. To appear out of nowhere, to which I can only pray catches me off guard and keeps me in awe the same way this has. I could be so lucky to be blessed that twice over...

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They say that if you love something and you let it go, if it comes back it's meant to be. I truly believe this, and in doing so gave myself the ability to not be greedy and think for others, in a way that I never thought I could do. If it comes back, then it was meant to be, if it doesn't, then it was still good for both of us. Either way I have become a better person for it and proved myself stronger then I ever thought I could be. And that's what we all want, to be better, but not in other peoples eyes but our own. I have a lot of goals set this year and I will be strong enough to go it alone, I still got my friends, my family, and a strong hold on my faith. The road going forward will be long and not easy, but that's what makes us strong, going through doubt, overcoming regret, and enjoying every shinning moment you make, create, or earn in this life. To this Amazing Thing, I wish only the best and that you find what you are looking for, and in the same respect I hope you'll wish the same for me, as it will be the best thing for us. To you I dedicate this Video...

God Bless all who spent the time to read this and that I pray for you all never to endure this hardship, well it's gonna be what it's gonna be, and the best thing is to just move on...and FLY.

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